yeah uhm so today my cousin had a bridal party and i wore a dress and like after when my family was sitting in our living room i was sitting and my mom lifted my dress and saw my cuts and they look really bad and then she made me go to my room to talk. so yeah now she knows that i cut and she took my knife and she’s making me see a therapist, tomorrow she’s starting to call to find one. and then she asked if i was suicidal and that if i ever took my life how much that would hurt and while she was talking it made me realize that if i were to have followed through with it like i was planning on in two weeks that i would be destroying my family. and so now  i’m gonna try and get better because i don’t want to feel like this anymore